Love and grief

The Self-Imprisoned!

2008-10-02T14:07:00.001+05:30

I could not know what enslaved me
Of what were my chains made
Some one has whispered I am not free
And my free will is dead!
I cannot move, as I desire
And must move when I would not
I am imprisoned a slave entire

This all, I have myself bought!
I did not know what was it all
Was blast with sweet ignorance
Slowly I entered myself to enthrall
So foolish was that romance!
What pushed me ahead was all unseen
I could feel its force
But now I cannot easily wean
Myself away from the course!
Where it may leave me I cannot know
On what sands, unseen, unheard!
Who knows what way the wind may blow

The master may free this bird!

THE LOVE SUPREME!

2008-10-02T14:05:00.002+05:30

THE LOVE SUPREME!
What dream I chased what vapour pursued
To reach at this stage at last
O! Had I known these pleasured crude
I would not have been in the blast!
What madness came in my simple mind
Which is a slave of a passion.
A shadow - it chased - for love is blind
The shadow had no compassion
The flesh I loved was all unworthy
Of the intense fervour I cherished
And my soul at last became unhealthy
Its nature splendour is perished!
Blind to light, I wanted the wick
The flame I couldn't perceive

For the water, a mirage I chased so quick
But alas! Myself to deceive.
All earthly passion is a shadow vague
Of that one love supreme
None can give it and none can beg
It dawns on the soul like a gleam!

And when it dawns the world is a game
In which I cannot be pained
All joys and sorrows to me are the same
For no more my soul is chained!

The freedom I yearned I can realise
Even when the bonds are there.
All earthly ills I spiritualize
To me the foul is fair!
For all is bliss- and all complete
All is good and great
With the heavenly meaning all is replete
Realise it soon or late!
To be known either soon or late)

Some Song

2008-10-02T13:58:00.000+05:30

Some one was singing
On the lonely hill
A strain came ringing
Like the murmur of a rill
Its music came reeling
In mysterious words
Yet softly appealing
Like the songs of the birds.
Sometimes it burst
Like the vast rain showers
In which were immersed
The neighbouring bowers.
With its touch sweet
The air seems to quiver
The sky clouds to greet
It's musical shiver.

The earth seems to leap
Along with my heart
Embosomed to keep
That strain off smart!
Like a lustrous ray
It travels unperceived
And reaches for away
Everywhere received!
The Music may ebb
I cannot be free
Its unseen web
Has enslaved me!

The Love's Threat!

2008-10-02T13:55:00.001+05:30

The stars have shone
The night is come
All birds are gone
To their own home! 1
The dark thick veil
Of the blind gloom
So tossed by the gale
Yet larger to loom 2
The brook let peals
The jovial strain
That gently steals
My secret pain! 3

The shore is crying
It’s fierce to all
The breeze is singing
On the flowers pale! 4
Oh! How long now
I am yet to wait
If commest thou
Either soon or late! 5

Then all is well
And I am blest
If not then, I tell
In grave, I'll rest! 6

This world

2008-10-02T13:52:00.000+05:30

This world
A phantom toy
This self
A vacant joy!

This truth
A cheating show
This love
To thee shall flow

The east is flushed with the glorious Dawn

2008-10-02T13:49:00.000+05:30

The east is flushed with the glorious Dawn
Even as my mind with theirs sweet love
Oh! Say whether now thou hast gone
On the earth or beneath, here, there or above?
In the far off land my plaintive cry
Is sending it's wild heart rending echoes
Within my heart, thy hard refusals lie
Deep buried in the grave of tears & woes!
The hope of a union within thyself throbs
Ceaseless in the blood of my burning vein
And through my small hearts' unlistened sobs
Is peeping a secret joy again
The Blissful dream is deeply wrought
In my very spirit, all through & through
And whatever happens will disturb not
My madness the mirage while I pursue!

For thee, my heart shall ever yearn
To me thy meanest gift is great!
Forever, the flame of my passion shall burn
For the fruition of my love, forever, I will wait!
My languid heart is slowly awaking
With the sudden flash of a dim desire
And the distant possible is softly slaking
The thirst of my soul's all devouring fire!
With listless steps now here I linger
I never have known this strange haven!
Fresh joys are sung by an unknown singer
Who soothers my hearts so sweet a pain!

Beneath

2008-10-02T13:47:00.000+05:30

Beneath

The bosom of the stream
Beyond
The edge of the dream
Your remembered kiss I place.

The wristlet sings the joy of thy heart

2008-10-02T13:45:00.000+05:30

The wristlet sings the joy of thy heart
My neck as thy arms entwine
A mist in the eyes of the tears that start
From the heat of old love's wine! 1
The jewels on the breast, have mirrored thy face
And myriad beauties are there!
In a sweetness shy as thy eyes do trace
My hand that fondles thy hair 2

Like a creeper thy shape is so close to me
Oh! So he if for ever
From behind the night all stars should see
To kiss thee as I endeavor! 3
The sunset glories have mingled in one
In thy smile to reappear
Thy kiss -love's guard on when I have won
Again, on my cheek thy tear! 4
That tear before it, the world's a trifle
And heaven a tale unheeded
The too much joy, my voice to stifle
Overfeeds (Overfeed) the lungs that preceded! 5
The virgin calm around us now
& Sweet contrast to our hearts!
The joyful tumult we know not how,
Where, why and who imparts! 6
The feeble tremour (tremor) of thy heart is lent
To mine tho' it is so strong!
For blending our hearts, on the earth is sent
Loves sweet unearthly song! 7

The Prayer

2008-10-02T13:43:00.000+05:30

The slumber on the eyes
Like the mist on the flowers
The soft curls lie
Like clouds, dark with showers!
The flourish of thy hand
Like a wave on the sea
Thy footprints on the land
The track of a fairy.
The smile like a rose
So fragrant with love
Medeems (Mediums) the rainbow chose
The curve of thy brow
Thy one grace the glance
And anyone's thy slave
The invincible lance
God of love gave
Thy look so persuasive
Taming everyone

All hearts to deceive
A great attraction
With so nimble a gait
Like the lightning to vanish
Forever, I may wait
But all hopes to vanish!
With so fair a form
So cruel thou art
Oh great my love warm
And the prayer of my heart!

The Denied

2008-10-02T13:40:00.000+05:30

Thou hast not known
My heat's distress
In its recess
The seeds are sown
By a winning glance
That thou hast east
To leave me at last
In this lovely trance!
But seeds are grown
In a harvest rich
Angles for which
Will always mourn!
I faint; I languish
Heartless art thou
Be kind but now
And soothe my anguish!
Thou hast not felt
A grief like mine
I hope; I pine
But off have I knelt
Before thee, my joy,
My love my worship
Enough this hardship
Thy slave to annoy!
Nod me thy consent
Grant me my desire
Or in thy Love's fire
The martyr, I am sent!
My ashes will adore
Thy sweet memories
My sweeter worries
And my sweetest sore!

'Keep quiet' She Said

2008-10-02T13:37:00.001+05:30

O! Such is her will that I must be calm
And should not speak a word
Her sweet strain alone should now embalm
The air all else be unheard!
A request sweeter to me was not made
Ever since I could hear
Happier words no one has said
My worried heart to cheer!
Oh! Stop my voice, if she has desired
My silence, which she sings

Her childhood's vision I have aspired
Since long for the joy it brings
Like a cloud she wandered with lovely gait
In the heaven o childhoods joy!
A victim now to youth’s new bait
She is loves helpless toy
She brought at my feet her richest treasure
Of all her early dreams
My pain her sorrow, my joy her pleasure
We are not two me seems
She opened my life, like a flower in the woods
Some fairy with a wand unfolds
O'er me her love, like a shadow broods,
My heart in a silk chain holds!
Let her enter the childhood's world again
Youth's joy is never as sweet!
Forever, I am mute if she sings the strain
In silence the gift to greet!

A Poor Beloved!

2008-10-02T13:33:00.000+05:30

Whenever I think that thou art mine
A doubt disturbs my belief
In the swo------n of thy love's so lustrous wine
That doubt, a memory brief

A maiden I am so lovely and humble
With none but lover's great treasure
For me, so luckless, the fate may gamble
To go out thy love's rich pleasure!
Love is no barter- I may not give
Even a trifle is return!
Sacred its power, in which I believe
For thee, yet, hence I yearn!

I love to be poor, for richer the love
If not drunken with glory
The poverty is the secret go one
Where loves can never be sorry!
No splendour I need but altered rage
My body, which half conceal
How bashful, I feel, my mind flags
The heart not the breast they reveal!
O! What can I do I am so poor
So loving, so fair, and shy!

But as to thy love I am so sure
Our hearts can none untie!!

A retrospect

2008-10-01T21:09:00.000+05:30

The visions all have past
Tho' the eyes are not open
My beloved gone at last
There is only Love's token!
The fragrance has departed
Tho' the faded flower is there
And though we both are parted

In the world's famy (famine) fair
A memory ah! One we were
All happy lights are fled
Tho' the stars have plucked the sky
O' cloud of tears unshed
Now soothe [wet] my burning eye!

O! The night is pitchy dark
No! It is the day begun
Listen to the joyous lark
That sings & greets the Sun
All the wealth of the bloom
Though the spring has brought
To me, but all is gloom
For now, some one is not!
This song is already sung
The echoes are briefly heard
And tho the ------ing is flung
Yet there is that correct word
The day is already set
The twilight lunges still
And the gem I may not get
Yet deathless is my will!
All the wealth of flowers
Although to next spring is gone
Yet its memory blooms
A joy is shaking its wing
Tho the down is out of sight
The dew is sleepy --------

My secret song is as yet unsung

2008-10-01T21:05:00.001+05:30

My secret song is as yet unsung
My life is also not lived
Thy precious gifts away I have flung
All treasured lie unperceived
My falsehood, joys, and loves deceptive
Have made my life a shame!

What I have lost, can none retrieve
A burden to the earth I am!
So hard a game-I could not gain
The freedom from silken bonds
Deep sunken was I - yet deeper again
Obeying the devils command!

The dungeon I built around my soul
And give it a mortal name
All this was a play- and not my goal
But a sorry joke it became!
The walls I laid can never be broken
Their shadows reaching a far
My truest self now I have forsaken!
Too stiff my chains as are!!
My love the flowers from out this just
I bring to thy worshipped feet
So small so withered and yet thou must
With all thy kindness greet!

"No more"

2008-10-01T20:32:00.001+05:30

Ah! There she lays and an everlasting sleep
Has conquered her forever; and for me no more

Will a strain be sung, at which, my heart may leap,
Or which may bathe the world in its gentle shower

That quickness all to life and light and Love
And receives what is dead, depressed or outworn

Enlivening all joys and sorrows that move
Our desires, aspirations; dead, living and unborn

Ah Never- never that strain shall again be heard
And never again that caress, so bashful and so sweet

O' the stars, that have known that embrace and that her word
And have watched in wonder mist, when our lips just meet

Alas! I have opened my arms now in vain
No more that her loveliness and never more that strain

"What" is this? God knows!

2008-10-01T20:30:00.001+05:30

The world is spinning round
I stand motionless
The sky is lost in a sound
All minds in a mess 1

All things are being tosst
Like feathers in the blast
All colours are also lost
In one gloom at last 2

No steady here and no moving
But all packed together
No hating now and no loving
But only breathing air 3

Here hearts are only bosoms
And heads mean the brains
Leaves themselves are blossoms
And waterless the rains 4

The spring has never revived
In winter what's dead
And winter not survived
The autumn's sick bed 5

But what is this? God knows
Death, trauma or disease
A light, within me glows
Thus the breath seems to cease! 6

My life is a chase

2008-10-01T20:25:00.001+05:30

My life is a chase
After some shadow
Whose mysterious ways
All miseries endow!
The love's mad belief
And bitter illusions
My saddest griefs (grieves)
And elusive visions;

The heaven I aspire
And the hell I fear
And whatever I admire
Or deeply endear
The blossoms& flowers
Winters and springs
Gay and sad hours
On swift or slow wings
Joy and sorrows
Hopes and desires
Whatever life borrows
And richly attires
The doll of vanity

And forgets its aim
While the false satisfy
Undoes the whole game
My life thus or hollow
So noisy with mischiefs (mischief)
Yet all blindly I follow
This cloud of griefs (grieves)!

In a trance

2008-10-01T20:20:00.000+05:30

In A Trance!
Her arm was nestling around my waist
My face was seen in her eyes

Her loosened hair were fondling my breast
Like the clouds that wester sky!
A whisper soft her lips did utter
So close they were to mine
With an unknown joy my heart did flatter
As it tasted love's rich wine!
That whisper was heard by my soul alone
My ears were already deaf
To no other ear it could also be known
In my heart it is treasured safe!

The breeze was gentle it shyly passed
Since we were both in a trance
No leaves it moved no feathers amassed
No flowers were left dance!
The moonlit heavens were quiet as my soul
Free from all bonds mundane
All the touch of this love, all desires roll
To land on a blissful haven!!

Consolation

2008-10-01T20:18:00.000+05:30

Let the lightning fly
With her unseen wing
And the glances sky
That she doth fling
May mock your eye
Be clouded with tears
And laugh at your sigh
With voices fierce

Let the morning smile
And be lost in her joy
The songbirds beguile
Her feelings coy
And now she greets
The nearing day
A sweet vision fleets
In her eyes gay

Let the zephyrs swarm
In their merriment
Give a welcome warm
And a sweet consent
To all who denude
When you are distresst
For when by my side
As you, none so blest!

Lonely I wondered like the fallen star

2008-10-01T20:12:00.000+05:30

Lonely I wondered like the fallen star
Homeless, forsaken uncared!

Thy smile beamed on me from afar
The Heavenly light it showed!
Like a shaft it pierced my throbbing breast
I trembled like a creeper in fear

Thy look so youthful and joyous & chaste

If evoked in my eyes a tear!
The graceful greetings thou gavest me then
And the innocent talk we had
Half opened my lips to tell thee in vain
My life's story sad
I could not speak, for, love is mute
It has no words available
Voiceless its throat, and note less its flute
Its picture invisible.
The secret lingered and vanished again
It came in my life to burst
In the deepest recess of my heart was lain
The love, in which, I'm immersed.
The self same secret was trying to leap
In all thy language sweet
May, even thro' silence thy love did peel
My similar feeling to greet!
The bonds were mutual at our first sight
To hearts the secret was open
Unasked, unseen our arms did unite
On thy lips I pressed love's token!

Who's dead?

2008-10-01T20:07:00.000+05:30

Ah! The dust that covers
Her loveliness
Is mine, her lover's
The sacred place
The heart that throbs
Now in my breast
So the echo of the soul
That thou gavest
For my own heart

Is not with me
It is but a past
And a fraction of thee
And therefore it lies
Beneath this grave
Its unheard sighs
The stones will brave!!
No wind shall pass

To bees that voice
No leaves will amass
With the rustling noise
To echo my words
Half uttered in pain
Like the dying bird's
Last muttered strain!
Ah! Dead I am
And thou art living
Hence let me damn
My life's deceiving!

The self-surrender

2008-10-01T20:04:00.000+05:30

The Self - Surrender

A leaflet - fallen, torn!

A flower - faded, pale!
A heart - broken, forlorn!

O! I am borne on the gale!!

Or, tosst on the shore

Like a shell fragile,
None heeding my sore
Nor greeting my smile!

-The Elphinstonian, July 1924 issue

The gatherer

2008-10-01T19:59:00.000+05:30

I'll gather all my happy notes
A song to weave of passions frail
With joyous heart; anon life floats,
Like a dream, o'er silent visions pale.

I'll gather pangs of quenchless thirst
A flush with hope of fruitful end
When at its painful thrill I'll burst
In songs, obscure secrets to rend.

In a dreary calm I'll gather new
Music, swept with sweet echo
Of raptures, that in madness blew

From my heart in crystal flow!

Aftermath!

2008-10-01T19:58:00.001+05:30

A poignant trance trembled upon my singing soul
And vanished - I began to sob my sorrow.
Alas -- that glimpse of some infinite beauty
Shall it touch my each to-morrow?

Is there no greatness that I should seek to have
In absence of that faded sight?
Is there no human love that I should ever chase
To drown the memory of that Vanished light?

THE INFINITE BREATH.

2008-10-01T19:56:00.000+05:30

To forsake my true dreams

I clip my fluttering wing.

To clothe-this lie of the flesh

Such foolish songs I sing!

Whenever I can cheat

My soul from out this dust

I kiss-your pensive brow

And slake my age-long thirst;

Your Presence - only felt

In all this fraud of the earth;

I am - yet willing to loose

Myself in an untrue mirth;

Once - fully let me be dead

In this your Infinite Breath

Enough - this Fraction life

A partial painful death!!

The Offering

2008-10-01T19:55:00.001+05:30

Death's vision quiet let unchain
My weary bonds of mortal life
I'll sigh away my secret pain
Silent in dinning wordly (wordy) strife.

In shadows of its distant gleam
Fragile my yearnings fade away
Ablaze with life's unshattered dream
Joyful I'll at its touch gay.

A deathless chain of songs futile
I'll proffer as my greetings warm
With whispers sweet when it shall smile
And clasp me in its fondest arm!

The Solace.

2008-10-01T19:53:00.000+05:30

For lost delights why vainly weep,
When vernal glories smiling shine,
From silent throats new raptures leap,
And scattered lie all gifts divine?

Why weep, my heart, for the finished song
When sweet my lyre I sit to string?
With rhythmic steps new visions throng
Like early vapours on their wing.

Why always weep for the echoes dead
When ring the notes of the purling stream?
Long cherished hopes tho' all have fled
Bright new lights fling their distant beam.

Why fruitless weep for tho' vanished dream
When shimmering fancies linger by,
And unseen shines a happy gleam?
O'er shadows frail, let us not sigh!

THE CHEATED

2008-10-01T19:50:00.000+05:30

In the grasp of fiction
I struggle and desire
And burn myself
In a phantom-fire!

My sorrows and joys
I myself name;
And weep and smile
At the untruth same;

If only a light
Would flash from without
I will happily pause
To linger about

-This ruinous falsehood
That cheats my feet
And gives the sour
In the shape of a sweet!

THE MAZE.

2008-10-01T19:49:00.000+05:30

For solving my doubts
I silence my why;
To alter this world
I close my eye!

To reach my abode
I only sit here;
To laugh with others
I hide my tear!

For the fear of Love
I call it untrue;
What I must not know

Why should I pursue?

Towards God-Love

2008-10-01T19:45:00.000+05:30

Oh! My Beloved-
Now let us bathe
Our loving hearts

In a sorrow's crystal stream;
Then let us place
The Almighty Truth

In the temple of each our Dream?
Oh! My Beloved-
We both shall live
A life of love

But just for a flying hour,
Then let us part
In a loveless search

Of the God Love's sacred flower!
Oh! My Beloved-
Once forgive me
And pause a while

This bittersweet truth to know;
I loved not you
And it was all
An Hour's enchanting show.

Oh! My Beloved-
All earthly loves
Are passing phases
Of a higher, sweeter tale

Across our human
Ephemeral feelings
To the Lasting God
-Love we sail!!

Light and dark

2008-10-01T19:40:00.000+05:30

Between a dark and a dark
Life is a flying light.
Between a pain and a pain

Love is a cheating sight.